I am okay.
I want everyone to know that.
A little stunned, a bit anxious, but mostly okay.
If I am affected by anything, it is the landslide of support and good wishes which fortunately has come my frightened way.
I started to write this post yesterday to update all of you worried souls as to how I was doing, but just as I was typing how stunned I was that everyone had been so uniformly kind, the LiveJournal fiasco occurred and suddenly, I felt my chest tremble as my pulse exploded in my head. I couldn't breathe. For a few minutes, I irrationally hated everyone who was born in 1983, since (randomly) everyone who was being so callous about my "crappy writing" and "whining" was a 23-year old jerk. Then I was sad, because despite over 150 comments filled with love and goodness elsewhere, ONE pathetic web page filled with ignorance and shitty, immature statements made me capsize emotionally.
Unable to hold back, I responded to LJassholess and forced myself to not check back for the rest of the night. After tossing and turning fretfully, I went to work today. And to my continued, grateful amazement, the grace kept coming my way via SM and this blog. And because of that, I feel a small measure of peace.
Thank you, for your concern, for your comments, for your emails, for your prayers, for your phone calls, for your friendster testimonial and for your love. I love all of you, too.