you know why i can't join the party of my parents, the party of kennedy, the party of the loyal opposition? because certain "liberal" assholes make it impossible for me to stomach the thought of being a democrat with them.
i've said it before and i'll say it again, the sick thing
about d.c. about the humans whom i know is that the conservatives, in some bizarre and unexpected way are more tolerant than the liberals. when i
interviewed on the hill, the GOP offices i applied at looked at my internship at my
local dem congressman's office and paused before realizing that he was
my LOCAL congressman, that i was working for the people of my district. fine. no harm, no attitude. no excessive questions to determine what manner of snake i might be.
unbelievably, it was the DEMOCRATS who gave me snide shittiness for working for CA Gov Pete Wilson, nevermind the fact that i did so for my POL 192a class at Davis and he was the Guber in office at the time. "how do we know you're trustworthy? no matter, we could never work with someone who worked with him!" no opportunity to explain, no willingness to consider such words even if i had been allowed to speak them. i didn't understand the disparity between those two reactions then and i've made no progress in reconciling it now. so, stuck in the middle i'll remain, an avowed independent who is a political prisoner in solitary confinement, jailed by two mammals whom i equally detest.
solidarity? only if you consummately endorse everything they agree with...if you want to work against a death penalty which slaughters people with melanin who probably had poor representation, then you'd better not reveal that you don't mind intelligent design. all or nothing, a borderline political disorder, which would be a funny metaphor if it weren't so painfully true. if you don't raise your brown fist alongside these voices of reason, then you're acting white, you're a shitty conservative, you're uncle tom, you're a victim of your own self-hatred, you're the elitist oppressor, YOU'RE WRONG AND THUS, SUB-HUMAN.
i'm disappointed that there is no respect for other views or thoughts, but i'm more disappointed in cowardly actions like the one which inspired this post, a rant i am so passionate about, i dusted off my main podium HERstory to deliver it, because this isn't some desultory tidbit about my day; there is no bravery when it comes to people who leave anonymous comments on my personal blog, people who earnestly agitate for the right things via their own well-known political blogs, people whom i would be kind to, whom i respect, who repay such courtesies by dissing and dismissing me solely because i'm not like them. yeah, that's tolerance i will not be a party to, tolerance that i choose to live without.