i had as much fun as one can while having to work on a saturday (no, no TPS reports were filed).
i was so excited to go to the gym, after eating healthy and rejoicing over how my abs hurt every time i laughed at a co-worker's antics.
i had a night of catching up on blogging (55? my thoughts on the project runway finale?) and fotologging (more from philly!) to look forward to.
like a 12-year old, i was sweetly thrilled about all my new, fantastic eye-shadow and like a...um, 31-year old i was tickled by my acquisition of adorable new green cufflinks, purchased just in time for what would be my parents' 32nd wedding anniversary (march 17th).
and most of all,
i was still blissed out over my lightning-quick and flawless trip to nyc (arrive: thursday @ 8pm...depart: friday @ 3pm), which included a deeeelicious dinner at blockheads, some fun at joshua tree and other 3rd avenue amusements, reminiscing about college, staying up late and waking up later and finally, a perfect lunch of mysore masala dosa/idli/vada with someone whom i lowe and adore at madras mahal...
.
.
.
and then, on saturday night, i became a statistic.
a stupid, unwanted statistic. i can't believe my life. or, rather, how spectacularly it has gone awry in a matter of hours. i had everything all planned out. but, the best-made plans always get heckled by fate. also? it's hard for me to champion all police officers (as i am known to do) when the one they sent to help me was a sarcastic asshole who made me regret calling them in the first place.
please don't worry or assume the worst-- i'm okay.
no, i'm not. i typed that because i don't want to alarm you. i like you too much for that. i'm actually stunned and so anxious i could puke. my head throbs and i have three-dozen wet, scrunched-up kleenex on the floor to explain the lack of skin around the center of my red, swollen face.
but i will be okay. i talked to my mom, reluctantly (b/c i hated worrying and upsetting her). i talked to one of my best friends, gratefully (b/c i needed an anchor and a hug). and he marveled at my "strength". at my calm. at my resolve. if for no other reason than not wanting to disappoint a loved one so precious to me, i'll make sure he wasn't wrong.
so, i'll be all right. i will.
soon.
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