My sister just called, weeping. Eight years to the day that I lost my Father, the only Grandmother I've ever known has died. I feel like I am falling in to a bottom-less pit, like I'm racing through the air, flailing, filled with panic about when I'm going to crash...even though I can't see the ground which would stop this helllish descent. I can't breathe. Why this month, why this day? Why at all? I never got to say "Good-bye"...to EITHER of them. My heart is shattered, again.
My Grandma is gone. My Nana is dead. I will never see her again. I will never get to tell her I'm sorry for being the worst fucking granddaughter ever. I keep losing the people I love and I can't take it anymore, I can't. How much can one person grieve?
I am sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers.
Posted by: Ani | 2006.12.26 at 07:54 AM
So sorry to hear about your grandma...I lost mine earlier this year and hated myself for not being a better granddaughter to her..its a horrible feeling. Only God can help you through this time...keeping you and your fam in my prayers.
Posted by: StacyMary | 2006.12.26 at 10:08 AM
My condolences to you and your family.
Posted by: Sriram | 2006.12.26 at 11:37 AM
a n n a, i wish you peace and comfort. you are in my thoughts and prayers. i'm just around the corner if you need anything.
*hug*
Posted by: nisha | 2006.12.26 at 11:57 AM
Anna I'm so sorry for your loss. Hang in there. My best to you and your family. **huggs**
Rupa
Posted by: Janeofalltrades | 2006.12.28 at 11:05 AM
Anna,
You are in my thoughts and prayers as well. I pray that you may find succor for your anguish and are not consumed by the darkness you feel inside you.
Posted by: Maurice Reeves | 2006.12.31 at 09:45 PM
so sorry to hear this.
Posted by: chaitan | 2007.01.02 at 01:49 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.
Posted by: ads | 2007.01.04 at 10:41 AM